A little bit of my Heart

My whole life had been in shambles from things like: my dad being a severe alcoholic, a car accident that almost killed me, being sexually abused, my sister dying at a young age, my mom going into depression, and the end of my junior year in high school-we were being evicted from our home. This really rocked my world because this meant I had to change schools going into my senior year, quit soccer, not go to church, and everything else I loved. I decided at this point it was best for me to leave my parents and find somewhere else to go, I had no idea where I would stay, how I would eat, how I could finish school and survive. I looked to God in the midst of the nasty storm in my life and He took care of me. For the next 8 years, although I was taken care of, there still seemed to be uncertainty in my life.  I really started to lose faith around this point because I never thought I would get out of this circle of my life. I had a youth pastors spouse tell me that I would never be anything. That I would turn out just like the rest of my family, unmarried, pregnant, a drug user, and a drunk. I began to believe this and because I was always told these things and lived in it, I started to believe it and acted on it. I did many things I regret ever doing but in doing these things I learned I wanted nothing more to do with this part of my life and I could be better than this and I would show everyone that I was capable!! I still bounced house to house, I had to say goodbye to many of those who truly cared about me as I left to go away to college alone, I had no idea how I could manage to pay for college, live on my own, work, and study. Through it all, God never left my side and in 2011 I graduated college, something I always dreamed of but never thought I would have the chance to succeed! I did it and I did it for me! Even after college, life was still rocky, I still bounced around, I still was unsure how I could live, but again, God opened a door to a teaching job and I survived one more year without my parents or all of those negative people in my life. Throughout all this time, I always wished my parents would come around and want me, to want to be a part of my life, but my hopes were always crushed because they only wanted my money (what little I had) and when I didn’t do what they wanted, they would yell, cuss, and tell me how horrible I am. I never wanted to hurt anyone but I knew I had to do this for myself. I knew I couldn’t turn back to their lifestyle. I was very active in church, made wonderful friends, and my life continued even through the pain I suffered from daily.
God had much bigger and better plans for my life and it was laid upon my heart to really consider teaching overseas. Before reality even sank in, I was on a plane heading to Moscow to start a life there. My whole world was about to change, again. I was unsure how I was actually going to handle it after reality sank it and jet lag wore off but God knew what he was doing and exactly what I needed in my life! Moving across the ocean into the total unknown all alone was extremely frightening. It was rough living so far away from people that I loved and a church that had always been there for me through all the storms. I must say, that in all my years of heartache and change, being here in Moscow I have felt so much more encouragement and sense of belonging that I have ever felt. I am accepted here for me and it is a great feeling to have. I had many rocky moments my first year in Moscow but I made it through with Gods continual guidance and faithfulness. I am now ending my second year in Moscow and I am preparing how to say goodbyes once again. I am prepping for yet another change in my life. I don’t know where life is going to take me. I don’t know where I will stay, how I make it once I move home again, but the one thing that is still constant is Gods love and Faithfulness through it all. God still continues to show Himself to me in all of the storms and changes of my life, it is my job to trust and obey what He is calling me to do.
I am not good at goodbyes, I never have been. I keep telling myself, “the more I do them, the easier it will get.” That is a lie! It will never be easy to tell my true friends and family goodbye or until next time. I have met some amazing people here in Moscow that I can call family and I know I can always call on them. As I begin to process all of this “change” that is about to happen, a lot of pain along with happy memories rise to the surface. I will miss Moscow very much, maybe not all the cold and lack of sunshine, but I will miss the love, support, encouragement, and friendship! I believe that my being here in Moscow has brought me to be a different person with a new perspective. I am going back home a new changed person with a better understanding of who I truly am! Being here in Moscow, I have found ME!!!

The New Year has Begun

Snovym Godom! As it is pronounced in Russian, Happy New Year! Fireworks boomed throughout Moscow from approximately 10pm-6am. It was one of the longest nights I have witnessed here in Moscow. Just when I think I could roll over and fall asleep, huge flashes of light would come through my window and the sound would startle me awake! Although I didn't get too much sleep it was a beautiful night! For the first two weeks of January we were still out of school for the Holiday break! I stayed home, enjoyed the peace and quiet since my roommate was gone away to a camp. I did my favorite things; cleaned, watched movies, cleaned some more, and enjoyed being able to skype with home as much as I wanted to. It was a glorious time.

January 7th is Russia's Christmas, I had the opportunity to go over to my bosses house and have dinner and play games with their family. It was a great night, I was introduced to new games! What great fun we had! The following Friday was a busy day but it ended with great fellowship at our directors house for dinner and games. If you haven't noticed food and games are a very common interest we all have here at Hinkson. :) Our Christmas break was coming to an end but we were all very anxious to get back into the swing of things at school. I was especially excited because I was getting a new student, A GIRL! YAY! That now makes for 6 boys and a total of 2 girls in Kindergarten class this year!

The first week back was an exciting but extremely exhausting week back. There is nothing like having to retrain your kiddos every little thing from how to get dressed to go outside to write your name on your paper!! It also amazes me how much dynamics of the classroom change when you add one student or even if one student is absent. Boy, has it been an interesting start to the new year. The rest of January seemed so very busy and exhausted as we were battling issues in Kindergarten, trying to finish Curriculum trak for our re-accreditation, meetings galore, tutoring everyday after school, and also trying to keep up with my own things at my apt. It seemed so busy and overwhelming that I turned around and February had arrived so soon!

February arrived and was quite a happy but rushed start. February started off quite calm but as we sat in our staff meeting it became very busy and overwhelming to write down all the dates on the calendar. The calmness of February has ended and the hoopla of stuff is just about to begin. This coming week we have Spirit Week; Twin Day, Wacky Tacky Day, and Character Day. Followed by Valentines parties, finishing Curriculum trak completely, Winter Break, 100th Day of School, Mens Day, and Dr. Seuss Day! I believe that February, already being a short month, is going to pass right before our eyes. I am prepared as much as I can be but the prayers are very much appreciated for our whole staff team as February is a very crucial cram month! Re-accreditation is vastly approaching here in March and there still is a lot to be done!

I still must say that through all the chaos of things happening at school and around us, our staff has been incredible at uplifting each other and helping in any way possible. I am blessed to be a part of the staff here at Hinkson! God is using each of us to serve the school and the students/families that we come in contact with on a daily basis!

Who gets a break??

            Since my last posting, I don't think I have actually stopped moving long enough (until now) to think about what to write next. The hoopla of Holidays and end of the semester at work completely took over my life. The end of November came and went in a flash. Mostly I remember having 3 Thanksgivings in 3 days, one with Kindergarten, one with the staff at work, and one on Thanksgiving with wonderful friends. Being able to share stories, love, and laughter with amazing people in my life is truly what I am most blessed by.

Not long after Thanksgiving ended did we start preparing for Christmas. On Saturday December 7, we had our annual Staff Christmas Party. We all dressed up, enjoyed the company, had wonderful food and fondue, and sang Christmas Carols together. The weekend couldn't have been better hadn't I gone to church on Sunday and Ice Skating. Some friends and I decided it has been too long since we have ice skated so it was time to go out. Now if you know me (klutz) it was going to be a long interesting night. We arrived to Gorky Park and after the wait in the bitter cold, we finally had our skates and were ready to tackle this fun. Well you dont need all the details so we will just say, it was a blast! We skated, laughed, sang songs, tried dancing in our skates over the lite up ground, sat by a fire, and fell.

The last two weeks of school for the semester were crazy busy and filled with excitement at the same time. We held the Elementary Christmas Program this year with no music teacher, I tutored almost every day after school, I lost my voice, there were meetings galore, decorating for Christmas, preparing Parties, and there was shopping for Christmas. We ended the second semester very well. We sang Happy Birthday to Jesus at our Christmas party in Kindergarten and that was the kiddos favorite part. It is so wonderful to see the love of Jesus in my classroom and to think that I get to be there teacher. Since Christmas Break started, I have been busy doing something everyday. Is it really a break for me?

I ask myself if it is a break and when I look at my calendar I would say no but I have to say, even though I am busy everyday, this Christmas break may not be about me at work from 8-6 but the fact that my focus over break is to spend quality time with friends here. Time for me to step away from the business of life at work to regain strength and energy but also to focus more on the Reason for the Season.

December 21, the annual HCA Family Christmas Service. What a great time to worship and fellowship with our HCA Family the birth of Jesus and this Christmas Season. Sunday at church was the kids Christmas program, although we are an international church and people are always coming and going, we had about 6 kids learn songs in English and sing for the congregation, it was beautiful. Afterwards, I enjoyed lunch and games at a friends house. Christmas Day approached quickly, at first I was bummed about not being able to come home for the holidays or at least visit my friends in Italy but I began to see how truly blessed I was to be able to stay here in Moscow with my new friends and family. My roommate and I stuffed each others stockings with fun little things and we enjoyed building two puzzles and watching Christmas movies the whole Christmas day! The day after Christmas, some friends and I decided to rent a limo and ride around the City of Moscow and see all the beautiful Christmas lights! Oh what a glorious time we had singing Christmas songs in the limo, seeing the lights, and building relationships and memories together.  

Christmas is over for Americans but in Russia Christmas isn't until January 7. I get to spend New Years Eve on Red Square this year and then celebrate Christmas again, Russian Style! I am praying for you all back home or wherever you may be. I know Christmas is over but something we should always remember is why we are here. The true reason for everything is because of the birth of Jesus, because without his birth there would be no death. Be a blessing to someone else and in return you will be blessed!!

Where has the time gone?!

    Do you ever have that feeling that life just jumped out the window and you are not sure where it landed? This past month has been so busy that I feel like I lost track of time. If I sit here and think about all that happened over the last 30 days, I draw a blank because it was so full that everything runs together. There is a reason I have 3 calendars that keep track of what my life holds. I know that may sound pretty scary to some of you but most of you I think know what I am talking about. 

 

October ended with a pretty big Bang! As the last couple weeks were busy with tutoring, meetings, regular class, parent teacher conferences, and soccer games, I do have to say it ended well. The weather started to drop towards the end of October but there was no snow! Praise God. A lot of the Russians that I work with are ready for snow but as many of the Americans at school say, "Not yet!!" 

November seems to be the month that everyone gets slammed. Elementary hosted a family movie night at the school, we also had meetings, 2 English Cafes, a Ladies Night, Fall Festival, In-service work day, and a Coffee House. Tonight a few friends and I are meeting up for Dinner and then we are going to the Old Moscow Circus! I am stoked for this will be my first time ever going to a circus. How exciting and what an adventure to be able to experience all of this here in Moscow. 

Admits all of the chaos of things going on in my personal life and work life here at school, things in Moscow are going great and getting colder. We have a Student Teacher here from Taylor University in Indiana. We are glad that she has chosen to be here with us. Her name is Emily, if you would pray for her please, for a great experience and safe travels back to the states in December. As the midway point of the school year is vastly approaching, our recruiting person is working very hard at making contacts to people about teaching at Hinkson next year. If you would, please pray for these positions at Hinkson to be filled. Here is our Website if you would like to check out what our school is all about or if you know someone who would like to check us out, please pass this on. http://www.hinkson.ru/ 

As most of you know, this year at Hinkson will be my last year. I actually just bought my plane ticket back to Florida yesterday. As wonderful as it felt doing this for me, it also became more of a reality that this chapter is almost over. I ask for continued prayers for me as I prepare to leave this place and take the next step of Faith into the direction God has planned. 

Nonstop Love and Passion

October has been a busy month already and it continues to get busier as the month goes on. Before we know it, October will be over and November will be here! The weather has been a bit bipolar but it was nice to finally have our Granny Summer. We had snow flurries on September 30 and some cold weather for a while. It was in the high 30s and 40s for a while until we had our Granny Summer of the 50s and maybe the 60s. It was beautiful! The Granny Summer has left us and it is now getting to the bitter coldness that will only get worse from here! It is almost time for the winter boots, jacket, scarf, hat, and gloves!!

October was kicked off with the most incredible week of VBS. During the Elementary Spiritual Emphasis Week, we decided to do the VBS Theme Kingdom Rock. It was a total hit! Some of the teachers went in on the Sunday before and decorated the gym to look more like a castle and had such an incredible time doing this together as a team to make the week even more exciting for the students. The children looked forward to Chapel time every afternoon where we sang such fun songs, listened to incredible stories, watched videos about how to STAND STRONG, and embrace the love of God. The teachers enjoyed it just as much, if not more, than the students did. This was definitely a great idea and a good tradition to keep doing at Hinkson. We all send lots of thanks and appreciation to Karen's church in America who provided all of the materials to make this happen for our kids.

The beginning of October was very busy for me with VBS all week but I also started a tutoring job after school, 3 days a week for a little boy who wants to come to Hinkson next school year. He is such a fun intelligent 1st grader. On Wednesday of the same week, I had the opportunity to go to a Performance in Moscow. Shadowland, a Shadow puppet group from New York, who won America's Got Talent, came and performed an amazing show here in Moscow! I am so thrilled that I was able to be a part of such an incredible night. How stunning to me that people could perform such amazing talents in such a way! Absolutely Beautiful!!!

Also this month, my roommate and I had some coworkers over for a girls night at our place. We had dinner together, played games, and enjoyed fellowshipping with one another. This is my second year here and on October 8 and 9, I had the opportunity to support our guys and girls soccer teams while they played great games. The guys won on Tuesday with an incredible win, unfortunately the girls lost but played such an incredibly hard game! Great job Huskies!!! Being a part of the English Cafe also was something I went to this past week. The theme was all about challenging your brain but was such an exciting time. There were so many games we played and were challenged to. Some of the Russians at my table were very determined to figure out all of the "American Phrases" and might I add they were very successful and even knew the meaning of some of them! The time together with Russians and Americans was incredible and a great time to share with each other the abilities and strengths we each have. God created so many different people with different strengths and weaknesses but when we all pull together it is amazing the outcome!

Last night, I cooked Stuffed Shells, Corn bread, and a broccoli Salad for my boss/friend and myself. It came out so incredibly delicious, I was surprised! I had such a good time preparing dinner and having such a special and important person in my life come over and just relax. The conversations that we had meant a lot to me. It was nice to have someone to sit here with me and share the good and the bad stories with. Having someone like Karen in my life has been a blessing since I have been here in Moscow. I honestly don't think I could have come as far as I have without her here! I am blessed to call her a friend and for the two of us to grow as close as we have in a little over a year. Both of us have such big caring hearts and we both LOVE hugs! Sometimes we take things or people for granted, sometimes we don't tell people enough how much we appreciate having them in our lives, but I think it is very important to make the effort if you really love and care for someone. You don't have to sit down and talk for hours on end but a sweet little message or a phone call can make all the difference to someone. Make the effort to make someone else's day brighter! 

Let the Little Things Change you

September is basically over but the last exciting event that happened this month was our Staff Retreat. We spent two days out of Moscow at this beautiful resort where Fall was definitely in the air. The trees were orange, red, and yellow. Leaves were all over the place, the weather was a bit chilly, and it rained most of the time we were there. Staff retreat wasn't about the appearance of the place but the time of fellowship and bonding time among the staff. We had two full days of worship, fun games, discussion time, very meaningful sessions, amazing food, and a large area of nature and beauty to explore. I am blessed to be a part of a group of people who love God and each other so dearly. 

This coming week is Spiritual Emphasis Week at Hinkson. The elementary team decided that this year we are going to do something new, we are going to lead a VBS for all of elementary. The theme is called Kingdom Rock and it is going to be so much fun this week teaching the children new songs and having a time of Bible all together as a team. A plus to doing a VBS this year means,jeans and a t-shirt everyday of work. That works for me!! :) I look forward to sharing this new experience with all of you.

Kindergarten has been a learning experience but also a very exciting time. In September we had: the start of a new chapter, language barrier, tears, happiness, change, a birthday celebration, and a lot of learning experiences for everyone. As October is vastly approaching, we continue to press on with learning, laughter, and togetherness. Kindergarten is full of life and it is such a privilege to go to work everyday and love what I do. 

As teachers and staff in a school it is easy to become very tired, have little patience, and it is very common to ask ourselves, Why? Then there is a time when the brains click on, the "I can't" becomes "I did it," the smiling faces that come running into class, and the hugs at the right time of day - That is why we teach. We reflect on all of this every day of our life no matter how frustrated we get that, one child forgot his homework again, another child won't follow directions, another child just isn't getting it, or that child won't stop eating crayons. I know for me and all the challenges I face, I wouldn't trade what I do for anyone. I love my kiddos, I love my job, I love everything about what career path God led me to. No one can quite understand that you may be having the worst day ever until the first giggling, snotty nose, sticky fingers, happy five year old runs into your class and smothers you with hugs, it is then the happiest best moment of the entire day. 

I challenge each of you to embrace the life of a child even if they come running at you with snotty noses, sticky fingers, or a colorful mouth from eating crayons. What harm will it do to love, hug, and share the love of God with that child? The only harm that may be caused is if you don't do these things. Love the little children that God created. 

The Challenges and New Life Experiences

 With the two week delay of school starting, all of the teachers, staff, and admin were anxiously awaiting for the first day to arrive. During the two week delay, God continued to show us that He had everything in control. While we are preparing for Accreditation this school year, we were able to knock out quite a bit of things needed during the two week block that we had. We were able to focus in our classrooms, come together as one family, and prepare for what was going to happen at Hinkson this school year. The two weeks were up and it was time to welcome new and old students back to school. I have never seen so much excitement, from the teachers and students, to start a new school year.

Kindergarten is full of life and energy, but also some more difficult challenges this year. I am still a new teacher to Hinkson but also to the teaching world in general. This is my third year teaching since college and my second year at Hinkson. I have the perfect size class of eight. Now to some of you, you may think, 'Wow, that is nothing compared to in the states when you have 25.' In that sense, you would be correct but what some of you don't understand is exactly what I deal with on a day to day basis. I may only have eight students but my eight students come from, America, Africa, and Russia. Three of my eight came in with extremely little to no English. One of my students is fluent in English and Russian but has never had to control when to use either. Then I have three students who are American who know no Russian and can't communicate with the other students. Out of the eight students that I have, only seven of them are here right now. We are awaiting the arrival of one my students who is having some Visa issues back in the states. Please pray that she can get here quickly, for I have one lonely girl who is surrounded by six full blown energized boys until she gets here. My class definitely keeps me busy all day, everyday. I am constantly on the move to encourage the students to only use English as much as possible. At first, my non-native speakers did not quite understand this concept but we are getting it and now discovering how to communicate in the classroom. There are a lot of hands on activities, acting, tears, and frustration when it comes to learning in the classroom.We are now going into our third week of school and my class is still motivated and just as energized as the first day of school. We have been working really hard on classroom behavior, direction, listening, and simple things such as: how to write our name, letters, numbers, colors, and shapes.  As the teacher, I had to learn to be very patient and understanding of all of my students needs. By the end of the school day, I am fully drained but I still love my job.

In the first couple weeks of school, we already had some functions take place. The first Friday after school started we had our annual 'All School Picnic.' All of the parents brought a dish and we opened up the Gym and the Cafeteria (we had bad weather) and the school provided hotdogs and hamburgers. We were able to kick off the school year by getting to eat, mingle, and get to know each other a little more. Then a week after school started we had our annual PIE Night. (Partners in Education Night). The parents were able to come in the evening time and could attend up to four sessions including going to their child's class and get to hear more about what happens in the classroom. After all of the sessions were finished, we met upstairs and shared some tea and pie. It was a successful night for all. As we are getting into our third week of school, this week will be cut short, for the staff at Hinkson will be leaving for our Staff Retreat on Thursday afternoon. We will go out of Moscow and have a weekend of music, games, get to know each other, worship, and mini sessions. It will be a time of focus on what God has in store for us individually and as a Family at Hinkson.

I appreciate all of you who are faithful to reading and keeping up with this adventure here in Moscow. I ask for continued prayers for myself, the staff, the students, Hinkson community, and Moscow as we continue to pursue God's calling.